Fear

Fear of destroying my testimony. Am I that important? Fear to be a bad witness for Yeshua. Fear to be a stumbling stone and to turn people away from Yeshua: Fear to cause a bad name for the community.

Confession:

• Lack of confidence, insecurity in my walk, decisions and guidance.
• Lack of substance in relationship with G-d, lack of Bible reading.

Fact: I overstepped time limits and legal/administrative boundaries. Why?
Fact: People seem to be ready to forgive me these things and give grace. That I should take as a sign of G-d's forgiveness and grace.

Yeshua is the issue and I can not deny Him!

How could Peter at the fire have responded differently? Was it humanly possible at all? After the resurrection, empowered by the Holy Spirit he did not fear any longer.
I gather it needs faith in the risen Lord and the power of the Holy Spirit.

Fear seems to be the opposite or counter-quality to faith. "Perfect love drives out all fear..." What is the connection between love and faith?

The love received from authority drives out fear and frees up to love in return.
My love for Him leads to knowledge and understanding and to a favourable relationship. Based on these, faith has a solid ground.